等到花儿也谢了！

每个人都在问我到底还在等什么
等到春夏秋冬都过了难道还不够
其实是因为我的心有一个缺口
等待拿走的人把它还给我

每个人都在说这种爱情没有结果
我也知道你永远都不能够爱我
其实我祗是希望你有时想一想我
你却已经渐渐渐渐甚么都不再说

我睡不着的时候会不会有人陪着我
我难过的时候会不会有人安慰我
我想说话的时候会不会有人了解我
我忘不了你的时候你会不会来疼我

你知不知道你知不知道我等到花儿也谢了
你知不知道你知不知道我等到花儿也谢了
你知不知道你知不知道我等到花儿也谢了

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女人！

上天给我们女人最好的礼物，就是眼泪，

让我们在难过的时候，不用勉强忍耐。

我们活在这世界上，

有时候会遇到自己开心的事，当然也会碰到痛苦的事，

痛哭一场，之后抬头挺胸继续往前走，

这才是真女人。

晚安。

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Babe Jocelyn 22rd's Birthday Celebration !

Happy Birthday Babe Wan Yin !
I knew it's passed now. LOL.. Simply talk to here. Went to Mist Club @Bangsar on 12/5/12 midnight since babe she hope to went there. But the commented is I think we won't be there in second times. Who called the Club's speaker and effect no good?! The speaker the sound no loud make us no that kind of dance mood to dance. LOL.. Damn it! Went there with kai zai and his gang of friends along. Ps:/ Got a guy drunk at the first and lying on the sofa, never mind who care him?! Got a moment.. OMG! He started to vomit, but do you guys know he lying when he's vomit. 正常要呕，就算躺着，都会起身脸向下呕。但他不是，他竟然睡着呕。OMG！呕吐物都流下颈和身体，呕到全身都是，还不只一次，很多次。没人敢、也没人想理他，因为真的太肮脏了。幸亏他有位女性朋友很好人，完全不介意的一直帮他搽干净身体。那男的也太没用了，一开始喝醉酒算了，不喝得还要乱喝，之后还要麻烦到身边的人，真是逊！I drink a little bit only because period that time not feeling well and babe can't drink much also. So both of us no drunk at all in this time. Played until the Club closed and moved to the mamak for supper, we were too hungry. Back to home around 4 something midnight. Yea, me and babe still can't in sleep. We chatting in Facebook and posting photos. LOL.. Crazy.. Sleep at 6am and woke at 10am for work. Good. -..-ll

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My 22rd's Birthday Celebration !

14/4/2012 - This night after work quickly pick long Babe Wan Yin back to my home around 6 something night. Take bath, dressing and make up. Oh God! Can't recalled back how come we can make it in about few hours until 9 something. Actually planned to go the restaurant for dinner but finally cancelled it and changed to another day. Damn it ! No choice, had a simple dinner nearby my house and after directly moved to the club, Black Magic Club @Bukit Bintang area. While waiting for go inside, the clock was 12am. Oh yea! Keep on asking every friend beside me :" Hey, do you know what's the time now?" Haha.. They forced to saying Happy Birthday to me. Hehe. Thank you. :) Wait a moment, our turn and went inside. The first time to Black Magic Club, the commented from us were there's a quite good place since the speaker and effect were GOOD! But got a little bit kinda expensive la. Enjoyable the night at there and me and babe wan yin drunk at last. LOL.. >.<

The second day, 15/4, my day. Am forgot what the time am woke up on the bed. But still remember the time am keep on telling the passed day matter happening to Babe Wan Yin, but her answered was :" Huh??????! She said she's no any memories, just remember the front part and forgot the back part at all. LOL.. Hahaha.. Many funny things happened on Babe after the Club on that midnight actually. But she was forgot it all! Hahaha.. So, am went to shop in afternoon I think, and heard that Gor Gor said Daddy and Mummy planning to have a dinner together at night. I think maybe was my birthday dinner, but just a simple dinner la i knew. Err.. But actually I'm planning to go for the Tosca Restaurant dinner with baby and babe them. How?! Family is important but the friend's dinner can't cancel since is my birthday dinner. So the final decision was go for the dinner with family after just dinner with friends. Yes! But it's super duper rush the time. -..-ll  Bla bla bla.. Skip it.. Finally finished all my celebration and my birthday was passed. :) 

17/4/12 - This day was the first day sambat dear Wen Qian and Wen Jun both of them came to KL for few days. Thanks to them for gave me a simple celebration even though my birthday was passed in 2 days ago. Thanks for the Osaka Cake bought form Ipoh's bakery shop. Love you guys. :) 

* Thank you for all the birthday wishes via sms, called and Facebook. I'm quite satisfied for this year birthday even though it's no what special and surprise. :) 

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Drenched-曲婉婷 !

I got it ! 

" Drenched " 

It's a touching song and romantic..

when minutes become hours

when days become years

and i don't know where you are

color seems so dull without you

 have welost our minds?

whay have we done?

but it all doesn't seem to matter anymore

you kissed me on that street, I kissed you back

you held in your arms, I held you in mine

you picked me up to lay me down

when I look into your eyes

I can hear you cry for a litter bit more of you and i

I'm drenched in your love

I'm no longer able to hoid it back

Is it too late to ask for love?

Is it wrong to feel right?

when the world is winding down

thoughts of you linger around

have we lost our minds ?

what have we done?

but it all doesn't seem to matter anymore

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4月26日的我。

今天又偷偷地自己一个人去看电影。这已经是第四次了。
说真的，原来我是真的真的超级的害怕黑暗。当我在很黑暗的地方而且又没有人的情况下，我一旦害怕起来，其实根本不敢说话、不敢望四周，而且一直冒冷汗。
每一次买戏票的时候，我一定会选一个被四周角落的人包围的位子，就算是很远也无所谓，因为至少前后左右都有人，也有安全感。今天当然也不例外。可是出了一些小问题，已经选择特地延迟5分钟进场了，跟着2对情侣一起进场。可是怎知戏院还没开、戏还没播，工作人员开了小灯让我们先进去，好了，2对情侣都坐在离我很前面的位子，突然漆黑一片，伸手不见五指，根本完全看不到任何东西，唯有拿出手机，但是也没用，当时真的超想跑出去外面，可是根本没可能，因为漆黑得看不到路，没办法，我只能一直的一直的对着自己的电话乱按，因为我真的很害怕很害怕，身旁完全没有人，而且很安静，觉得好无助。心里一直呐喊，拜托赶快开回灯！那过程大概维持有10分钟吧，对我来说，真的超级难过，犹如1小时。唉。。 但是之后就没事了，继续看电影。。。。

“ 春嬌與志明 Love In The Buff ”

这套戏，其实没什么讲评，就有那么的一点儿闷，是一部爱情故事，大概讲述一对情侣，分手之后的2年，各自交了男女朋友，但是到最后，其实还是很爱对方、放不下对方，所以最终又复合了，圆满结局。里头最后有一首英文歌，不错听，但不知叫什么名？得找一找。看完了之后，才5点钟，一个人去了“ 旺角茶餐厅 ”，一个人吃我的早餐。

* 其实我很害怕黑暗，很害怕没有人的环境下，所以请不要说我胆小，对，或许我是真的胆小，我天生出生就是这种害怕的个性，但这也改变不了，我就是无法克服。请不要把这种胆小拿来比较和害怕小昆虫之类的，因为那根本不一样嘛。

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4月25日的我。

今天已是第三次的单独电影。其实蛮喜欢这种感觉，但也蛮不喜欢的。其实一个人有一个人的好，多人有多人的好。一个人呢，可以安安静静的慢慢欣赏东西、可以安安静静的做自己想要做的。不怕身旁的人的打扰、吵闹或阻止。其实可以心灵清静、放松，也很乐在其中。反而多人呢，当然朋友多一定是开心的嘛。其实我很喜欢多人的感觉，所有人都开开心心、疯疯癫癫，笑得开怀大笑，其实很不错。但是不知从何时开始，身边的朋友慢慢地逐渐减少，好多事情发生、好多的理由。所以也慢慢地开始觉得，原来我错了，多人不一定会开心的，不是每一个都是从心里笑出来，可能只是伪装出来。所以呢，现在的我不管想要去哪里，当然之前多数会循例地问下身边的人，得空吗？想要和我一起出去吗？如果不得空，我不会强逼你或是责怪你，我没关系，我可以一个人的嘛。对吧？对。。

今天出门前上网看了电影的时间，本想说要看1点40分的那套戏，但是我2点才到那，算了，买下一场3点30分。当然在这其中1小时半的时间，都在一间CAFE里逗留，其实不会闷，因为里头有提供IPAD使用，上一上网、玩一玩游戏，时间很快过去了。这套戏 " Lockout " 还真不错好看，我最爱外国科幻片、动作片了。

这个杀人犯兼强暴反在里头有一幕吓到了我一跳！恶心！

看完了后，然后自己去AEON买要用的东西，讨厌只有那里是最附近的了。

* 不知怎么了，最近每天一起身，十支手指都很痛，这就算了，最近这几天，右手臂也不知怎么了，一天比一天的痛，一乱动就会更痛。是时候找一天去看医生了。

家里的两个宝贝真是可爱，但却超级的坏蛋。

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我们的心！

每个人都有一对眼睛，虽然什么都看得见，但是有一样是我们永远都用肉眼看不到的，那就是我们的 “心” 。如果我能看得见，我希望可以深入看透我的心底，它究竟想要什么？什么才是我该做的？什么才是我才想得到的？

每个人在自己的最心底处都会有一个秘密。一个只有自己才知道的秘密、一个或许甚至连自己都不会知道的秘密、不会知道的答案。

有时候真的很想知道，其实自己到底喜欢些什么、喜欢做些什么？不想就这样被蒙蔽一世，无所事事，没有计划、没有未来。是否觉得自己喜欢做的、想要做的，就应该试着尝试去做呢？这也尝试、那也尝试，其实会不会好像不定性，不认真，甚至在浪费时间和金钱。说真的，到现在如此，很多事情，真的不知道自己想要的是什么？想要尝试的，但却不敢去尝试。怕失败？怕浪费时间？还是怕浪费家人辛辛苦苦赚回来的钱？或许对于很多人来说，可能说，女生找个有钱人给嫁了好了，不用愁、不用烦、不用挨、不用辛苦。话是这么的说，但那却不是最好的念头，女生呢，不管怎样，其实都应该有一样自己的专长、本事。那以后才不会被男人给欺负。就算中途被抛弃了，至少还可以自己活下去，不怕没了他们的存在而活不下去。以防万一。

其实我的心很脆弱。
其实我的心很软弱。

其实我的心很怕受伤。

每一天尝试着开怀大笑。
每一天尝试着让人欢笑。
每一天尝试着开开心心。
为了就是身边所有的人不会因为我而不开心。
但是难免有时候却会得到一些人的冷漠回应、其实我很介意
但都没关系，哭一哭、睡一觉、笑一笑，
其实很快的什么都放下了、忘记了、无所谓了。

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Titanic 3D !

Finally had watch the movie " Titanic 3D ". Actually even though I had already repeat watched of this movie many and many times by the DVD that I had, but don't know what why don't I'll feel that's bored to me. Haha. I think maybe is I'm addicted in this romantic movie and since the date of the story occur was same with my birthday date, 15 April ! Awesome !

Next, my 22rd's birthday is around the corner but I don't got that kind of feeling expect! Four Chinese word, 顺其自然! Surprise or not surprise I'm not care since maybe I can't play so what hard on the Eve's day, maybe..maybe.. Many things that I hope to get it such as Camera, Ipad 2, Branded Bag, Watch and etc.. Haha.. It's impossible if I'm waiting peoples to present for me. But I'll get this all by myself in the future. Ya, I'll. It's easy! >.<

* Mummy asked me to bring her go for the Clinic on tomorrow at around 8++ early in the morning. No choice, impossible looking at Mummy walking by herself. Because she's planning to and will do that if didn't ask us to bring her. It's CRAZY Tay Ma Ma !!! I won't let you to do that. So I'll bring you go no matter what time Mummy. Aiya, feeling hungry now, gotta find some foods to eat, Good Bye. :)

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知心朋友、好朋友，是不是要时常见面、时常出外、时常联络，那才叫好朋友？
难道少见面、少出外、少联络，那就不算是好朋友，而且感情就会变淡吗？
其实就算少见面、少出外、少联络，要是他/她是你关心的、在乎的朋友，不管怎样他/她都是你最要好的朋友，因为他/她已经在你心里的朋友圈子里有了重要的分量。
每一个人，都会有自己很多分组的朋友。这里有一帮、那里有一帮。时常在一起玩乐的，或许并不代表那些是最要好的，而少联络的那一帮或许才是那永远最要好的。
所以，不需要去太介意他/她为何为何时常和另一帮在一起玩乐、出外，而少了和你联络。或许那并不代表什么，并不代表你在他/她心里不重要。对吧？

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