Should I cut short my hair or let it be long? Lol.. Confusing confusing.. When my hair is short, I hope to be long, buut when my hair is long, I hope to cut it short short. Alak~ How? So i asked many opinion from others. Yes, but asked equal to didn't ask so. Because some peoples said short nicer, some peoples said long nicer, and some peoples said both also nice...=.='' What a good answered for me! But for me I think I will still let it be long first, because short can easy to cut, but long it's so hard to wait it long. Or I will let the hairstylist to give me an opinion, haha! But that i am not confuse is I must dye my hair to purple red colour before the CNY coming. Yea, let's wait it.

Some stupid and lame picture here,

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这几个月里，好像发生了很多事情。爱情，友情都包括。爱情对我来说还好，反倒是友情。虽然可以说不关我的事，我根本不需要去理，去烦恼，可以在这里好好过我的生活，开心就好。但是我不可以那样，因为我一定会去关心你们，过得怎样了？有什么开心的事？我都想知道。但现在，一个一个都变了咯。你们不会好像之前那样开心了，之前的你们都消失了。好想念之前的你们。你们那么多个里面，感情跟我比较好的，Erene, ah b, wen jun, kokping. 一开始都是只有我们几个时常一起的，感情也很好，搞到现在将，我会当作没事情发生，因为我还想像之前一样对你们好，跟你们开心。并不想没有了你们这班朋友。 所以呢，现在战时让大家冷静下来吧，过一短时间后，或许希望会好点。

另外，现在的我其实每一天都在做些什么呢？恩。。。不是整天待在家，睡觉，看戏，就是有时被妈妈叫去店帮忙整天，好无聊的生活哦。本想下个月找工作的，但妈妈很sambat, 说等她和爸爸去完旅行回来才去找工，不然店没人帮忙...=.='' Lol... 我现在存着钱，也想去做工，然后有很多钱可以买自己要的东西的，当然第一，就是下个月尾，肯定是去买Iphone 4先了，决定了。

还有还有，最近都一直吵妈妈，跟她说，明年我的21岁生日，记得要送我 [白金戒指]，因为我有颈联和手链了，就缺戒指。哈哈！不过有人再送我颈联或手链，我都会照收，照戴。哈哈，因为我喜欢嘛。还有爸爸叻，希望他可以送我的礼物是，让我和朋友一起去香港旅行，不是我没钱的问题，而是就算有钱，他们也不给我乱花，不给我。讨厌。可是爸爸说，等他如果中万字，他就给钱我去香港，或是买一辆新车给我...=.='' 鸡蛋糕爸爸你，这句话，听到不要听了...=.='' T____T

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This time I really nothing can say, speechless is better for me I think so! You guys wanna become like this now, i also don't know what can I do anymore?! And you, you also removed they all in your facebook friend' list, and until now you also deleted your facebook account already. So I think you and they all is no more chance to be back friend anymore?! Haiz.. Now which side I also don't want stand already, I think I just stand in my side better, dear, not I don't want to stand at your there, is this time I really don't know can say what, do what?! Anyway, don't know why I felt I'm so lucky that now I'm at kl now and not at kampar there?! Then I no need to see you guys always had many argument at there and ignored who or who?! Although like that, I also hope you all still are my friends, the happy moment we're had before I am really miss it very much, but I know it's won't happen it anymore ba?! Haiz... Can I just let it be? Ignore all of you? I can't! Just because friendship is very important for me. If not I think now I sure ignore what happened between you all. I can so happy and spend my life at here. Haiz.. But I can't! Haiz.. We're not like a children anymore, this case should happen on primary school or secondary school only, not till college also can happen this! Lol.. feel like so childish for us. How old are we all now? Please be mature all. Dissappointed!

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你相信有命中注定的另一半吗？其实月老早已经用红线把我们和在某个地方的另一半牵在一起？只是你不知道，哪个才是你那真正的另一半？怎样才算是专一？才算是爱？是不是不管对方怎样对你不理不睬，伤害你，说根本不爱你，你和他/她之间一点关系都没有，但是，你还是无条件的那么地继续爱他/她？不管多少年，多少时间，甚至是永远，都愿意等他/她？直到他/她爱上你？但这算是痴情吗？值不值得？

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Lovely baobei.

Pic-cha with my lovely baobei, Ming Ming..

ugly ugly neh..

I love you lovely baobei, muacks...

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幸福是这样一个模样

幸福就是这样一个模样，

不必有奢华的铺设，

只 需要平凡中的一丝不平凡，

就能让人会心一笑了...

不必羡慕那些看起来很幸福的情侣们，因 为很多时候，那样的幸福是做出来的...

好好珍惜你身边的那个人吧，或许你们时常都是吵吵闹闹的，但未尝不是件好事呢？
有 时候，肯留下来陪你吵架的人，才是真正爱你的那一个，如果不爱你，何苦和你吵得没完没了呢？

昨晚回到家，不知怎的， 突然发病，开始伤风，咳嗽，想说去躺着睡下觉，可是太辛苦了，所以走起身，照照镜子。啊！！右眼红红肿肿，幸亏还不至于那么严重，不像当初在金宝那样，肿到开不到眼睛。然后很可怜的样子，跑去跟爸爸妈妈说，爸爸说：“一定是热气啦，水没有喝到，还有每天夜睡。” 妈妈说：“是不是遇到肮脏东西？还是去喝多点水吧。” 其实当我生病的时候，很需要别人的关心，呵护，尤其是自己的亲人，朋友。这样我才会觉得自己身边是有很多人关心和疼爱自己。昨晚整晚都睡不好，因为喉咙很痛，又一直流鼻水....T_T 所以今天睡到下午2点多才醒，因为整个人很累，很不舒服。起身后，等到5点多，姐姐才打包东西给我吃，可是我只吃几口，就把整包面丢掉了，因为根本没胃口吃。刚刚，爸妈又打包了面给我，现在虽然是吃着，可是放着，多过吃！ 就是没胃口。或许是因为不舒服的关系吧？！

今天，得知一位男性朋友说和他一起4，5年了的女朋友分手了。我听了后，很惊讶！就问他是谁不要谁？他说是他自己不要女的。之后我没问下去了，因为我这我之前都大概知道这是迟早都会发生的事吧？！ 所以说呢，“要分开的终究会分开，不管你们在一起多久，多开心。因为爱情是没有保证的，加上有些往往都是他们自己搞到有这样的结果。所以，现在可以珍惜就珍惜吧。

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I am feel tiring today. Lol.. Today daddy and mummy off day, closed shop. So I can sleep until about 1pm just woke up. Yea! I thought today I won't go out to anywhere, just stay at house, because my stomach is not feeling well. At 3pm, mummy knocked my room's door, and said : " We will go to Rawang and take dinner at there with Uncle Xiao Shu them, quickly take bath now, 3.30pm gonna out already. " Lol.. I hear it nothing can talk, quickly dressed up, bath also lazy to take, because just left half an hour for me, no need bath la, haiz.. We went to Kinder Garden to picked hong hong first, afterward just headed to Rawang. Reached there around 5pm, mummy wanna go find her cousin and introduce their product" Fiber" ...=.='' Good! Chit-chat at there until 6 something, one word for me "SIENZ". Afterthat dinner time with uncle xiao shu family. { Hong hong you're so naughty and full of energy, keep run around in that restoran, one word for you "YENG!" } Finished dinner, went to Parkson walked around, daddy mummy them bought a shoes for next month trip to CHINA, but i can't join. Tao Yan la! I wanna go la daddy mummy. T_T  Back to house at 11pm just now. A tiring day for me.

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怎么办？

其实今天突然让我很犹豫，到底应不应该继续读书？本来是决定了不读了，去学手艺。可是因为今天这样，让我很想回到学院生活，不用时常去到店里受气。可是读书，又不想浪费爸妈辛苦赚回来的钱。唉....叫我该怎么办好？唉......

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今天觉得整个人很灰，很累，很不开心。早上睡觉睡到一半，肚子很痛，因为这样所以才继续躺着，不起来，之后又睡着了。12点多，妈妈打给姐姐，很生气，因为我们都还没出店去帮忙。没办法，赶快起床准备去店。[其实我肚子很痛的] 到了店之后，坐在柜台，2点多，妈妈一得空就过来，开始一直骂，骂，骂，说看破我们了。当时，我看都没有看她一眼，因为我整个人很累，肚子很痛，又没吃东西，只是对着CCTV电视机看，真想哭了。算了，之后她骂完了就走了。整天， 我就傻傻坐在那里，动都不想动，大概4点，才肯去拿点饭来吃。虽然没什么胃口，还是吃一点。4点多，叫姐姐来载我回家去，回到家，什么都不想，就躺在床上睡到刚刚才起身。肚子是好一点了。但之后还是会继续痛的。今天赶快过去好吗？

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[ 匿名的好友 ] 不知怎的？ 听到这首歌，就会想到之前不开心的事。或许因为那段期间刚好是播着 “海派甜心” 这部戏吧？。 当时一边听着这首歌一边哭得很伤心，所以之后每次听都想哭，都会想到怎样被伤害？怎样被冷漠？怎样被拒绝？。。这是去到金宝第一件伤心的事。知不知道那种：{ 有个人来喜欢你，之后弄到你喜欢上他的时候，他却抛弃你}。想起来，觉得当初真是傻，竟然会再为了情情爱爱这些事，伤心到割自己的手。还记得当时的情况，拼命喝了酒后，哭得要生要死，然后丢酒瓶，然后再趁朋友不注意，偷偷拿碎玻璃来割自己的手，一条一条用力地去割，但是当时是一点都不觉得痛，因为心更痛。割了应该有7，8条吧？好像不错深一下，血一直流，而且还不给你们帮我抹...=.='' 当时还有个人傻傻跟我抢玻璃碎，然后学我也割自己的手...=.='' 用了大概2，3个月的时间才可以完全放得下。不过现在都过去了，那次之后，变得有点想开了，加上被爱情一次又一次的伤害，后面跟着发生到现在。快傻掉了 @.@~  现在听回这首歌，当然，是不会再伤心了。是觉得可悲。

.不能握的手，从此匿名的朋友，

不能握的手，却比亲人更亲厚。 

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